Don't go. I'll eat you up; I love you so.

Where the Wild Things Are (book & movie)

it's been "those" kind of days lately... and i still have a week to go...

fuck.

and that day we lived in the land of make believe

as you guys probably know from my previous sad and sap filled post... i wasn't able to see my hunny poodle on our 2 year anniversary... but he ended up making it out on wednesday night and we agreed that we would live in the land of make believe...

from current.org

and pretend that thursday was May 4th :) and celebrate then. 

[guess who doesn't like taking photos? lolz]

[lovely restaurant, shitty waiter lmao. food was yummm tho, too bad poppa didn't eat any of my thai squid or my USC roll :( ]

[this made me laugh!]

[new books to read, YAY! i feel like a bad parent neglecting all those other books i bought first and reading these ones right away :/]

thank you God.

Sneaky ♥ Shady

5|4|08

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sad Iza

today is me and my boyfriend's 2 year anniversary and because of stupidity (<3) and just shitty circumstances to begin with... i will not be seeing him at all today

:(

i am sad as sad can be right now.

i fucking miss you Demairo!

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why do you have to be so far away!

ok... so i'm frustrated... this is one of the things about me and my Bae's long distance relationship that just really gets to me...

so two friends of mine that i've known for many many years now have just gotten recently engaged and i was full on ready to go to their engagement party this saturday... but i found out that everyone else that i know thats going is bringing their significant mister/ma'am... and i already know for a fact that my boyfriend will not be able to go because of work and distance and lack of transport :( i just hate it because for 1... he has early shifts now! so its like if he were living over here... this would have been something we totally would be able to go to... and 2... i never take him anywhere... we've been together almost two years and he's only hung out with my best friend twice and has never even met my dad's side of my family ::super bummer:: you guys know that when you're in love with someone you wanna share them with the world, you wanna show them off and you want everyone to know how lucky you are... and i can't even do that because our lives are just so discombobulated :'(... and 3... its not like this is a really big deal, this party, you know... i can't make a fuss about it... i can't make him go out of his way to take the whole weekend off or something just so he can come down and we can go to someone elses engagement party... its just such a big hassle... for such small things... we have to schedule everything beforehand... i just hate not having a normal relationship... not because i want to be normal and do all these things and have him in my sight all the time blah blah blah... but because i want to do all these things with HIM! i wan't him as an everyday ingredient in my life and i want to share him with everyone else that i love...

but he's just so far away all the time :(

ugh... today just did not start off well... i'm gonna stop before i start weeping all over my desk heh... its hard to stay optimistic and just be a trooper on days that we're not together... but i must... and i shall.

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Distance and Time

i'm back home in Long Beach...

but i left my heart in Temecula :(

for all you people out there who are also trying to live and love with a long distance relationship, you feel my pain... it hurts every time i feel myself getting physically farther and farther away :( even after 2 years. ::sigh::







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